1.15.2013

on saying good-bye to panache

david and i got married in august of 2008, we bought our little clothing store a month later in september, and we opened in october of that same year (i was 19! a baby!). it was a whirlwind, and looking back, i can say with certainty that we had no idea what we were getting ourselves into. i spent four years running that store, and it was owner-operated (read: me behind the counter) the whole time save for the last 8 months after we had joony. and now, in january of 2013, we're saying good-bye to the business we built from the ground up and handing it over to someone new. it feels so strange to finally say that.
we sold our little clothing store.
selling the business was a roller coaster ride all its own. we showed it to a couple different people, all who claimed they were "so interested," but who usually ended up wasting a whole lot of time. it was hard. we would get our hopes up, do the same song and dance, answer the same questions, email the same documents, and then get that same answer again. it was frustrating and i shed more than a few tears over it. after a while we decided to take a break and just run the store for a bit, because selling it was so exhausting. having things come together with the right person has been such a relief. we're so grateful and hope for all good things with the new owner.
i don't know yet how i feel about saying good-bye to panache. it's been such a large fraction of who i am for the last four and a half years. it's been a constant when everything else has transitioned (graduation! baby! move! new job!), that it's overwhelming to welcome that transition, too. panache has been special to me. it's been the hangout spot for me and my dearest friends (because there usually wasn't anywhere else i could hang out), the practice space for the beloved improv troupe i used to be in, where i wrote almost every paper i turned in for my bachelor's degree, below the little apartment we brought joony home to. i blogged and read and worked in that space for a good chunk of the last 4.5 years and man, is it bittersweet to realize that it's a phase of my life i'm done with.
i guess all i have to say about it now is this: it's been a lot of fun, but i'm glad my time as a clothing store owner is over. it's a job i grew into, but not one that i am suited for. i will look back on it fondly and be so grateful for the experience.

10 comments:

  1. Wow! Huge transition. I saw the "Fuel" announcement this morning and raised an eyebrow. Hopefully this is just another good, solid step on the road of life for you and your family. A little mourning is entirely justified. (A little celebrating is, too.) ;-)

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    1. thanks, audrey! we're definitely doing a little bit of celebrating and a little bit of mourning. change is good, though! it keeps us on our toes!

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  2. first of all, thats such an awesome thing to be able to have done.
    but so awesome to be able to move on.
    i feel so weird that we will be finishing school in april and hopefully moving out of utah, getting real jobs. carazy.
    congrats, and sorry, i'm not sure which to say. either way what a great experience.

    K

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    1. thank you, kirsten! and good luck to you guys come april! transition is such a funny thing--you're so excited for what's ahead, but it is hard to leave familiar things behind!

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  3. Crazy! (for some reason that's all I can think to say right now, but I wanted to comment....so....Crazy!)

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    1. haha that's pretty much what i keep thinking over and over again!!

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  4. Exciting! Congratulations on this new chapter of you life, and subsequent free time.

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  5. This makes me kind of sad, since I used to come in the store quite often as a student. It just won't be the same without your cute decorations and fun taste in clothes if I ever come to Rexburg again to visit. I wish you the best, though! I'm sure you have even greater things ahead. :)

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  6. Sad! But also great that you were able to sell it. Change is hard whether it's for the good, the bad, or the both.

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    1. i love "the both"--so true! i think every change has a good and a bad side...at least the major ones!!

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